Thursday, March 25, 2010

More of this waiting stuff...

I know that it has once again been a while since I last blogged. I am going to cram several weeks into one blog so forgive me for the lengthiness. It has been a long and tough month. Yet I still find myself way to blessed to complain about it. One of my most dear BFF’s has faced a major tragedy within the last month. Despite the loss that she has faced, she has shown amazing strength, courage and dignity. She has been such an inspiration to me and I don’t think that I could possibly admire her more than I do right now. Her strength and grace has made such a big impression on me and how in spite of what life hands you…God is still almighty and will get us through even the most difficult of times (which I already knew, but seeing it in action has been amazing).
Benji has been out of town this week. This is the first time that we have been apart in many, many years. Even when we were dating for the last 2-3 years, we still saw each other every day. Now we have been married for eight years and have never been apart. I am thankful that we are the type of couple that can be together and not “need” to be away from each other. I am more thankful that this week is almost over, because I am so ready for him to be home. I made cookies, vacuum sealed them and snuck them in his suitcase, and I had a letter with pictures for each night that he was gone. (which my BFF has picked on me so bad about). I was missing him before he was even gone. I don’t see how people that travel often do it. One week has almost made me a crazy person.
Before he left, I asked if by chance we did happen to get a referral while he was gone, would he rather I tell him over the phone or would he rather I wait until he gets home and tell him in person. He asked that I wait until he gets home so that I could tell him when we were together. When he was getting ready for the trip, I was hoping that we wouldn’t get a referral when he was gone because I didn’t want to have to wait to tell him. Now that it is here, I really do wish that I had such a surprise to give him when he gets home. It would have been a great treat after a long week.
We did get a call back on an adoption grant. We have sent several off and have not received one yet. So we are super excited to get a call back on one. We are just praying that something works out with it.
That’s all I have for now. Hopefully I’ll have something more one day soon. But for now we will continue to patiently wait…..

Monday, March 8, 2010

*sigh* Waiting

It does seem like quite a while since I last blogged. There is just nothing new on the adoption front…just a whole lot of waiting…which by the way is really beginning to drive me crazy. The first couple of months seemed to just zip by, but now it seems as though time is just creeping along. I am trying to just be patient and wait in the Lord, but heavens to Betsy it is getting hard. I do try to not let it enter my mind but the thought that our baby(ies) are out there growing each and every day somewhere other than at home with us, can be an agonizing thought at times. However, we are going to get there, I just have to keep my patience (which is most definitely not one of my virtues) in check.